Rejection

Why does rejection hurt so bad.  Today i got rejected from unemployment because my previous place of work decided to tell them one reason as to why I was fired but they gave me another reason as to why they let me go... THIS IS BULLSHIT!!! I just don't get it. 


So right now I feel like I could just MURDER someone and not think twice about it.  I feel this rage deep inside that is making my blood boil and my skin crawl.  I don't like to feel this way but I have since I read the letter from unemployment.  


I am so PISSED I could just scream but I can't because the wife and kids are asleep, and I don't wanna wake them up.  On top of this, today I accidentally tripped my daughter and put a nasty bruise on her upper lip and and left cheek. I feel like a heel for that and I also locked my keys in the van at a job interview today so I had to ask my father in law to bring my my spare key because I was such a bone head.  Today was just not a good day for me and let me tell you, if I have to relive this day again, I think I will have to kill myself because there is a lot of pain in today that I don't wanna feel again.

SEX

Why is it when you tell a woman that you have been thinking about her all day, she teases you about it and then teases you by doing something that will make it worse??? And then when you have the time to do it, they say shit like "I'm tired" or "I don't feel good" or the worse, "I not really in the mood, I was just wanting to mess with you."

For women its okay to go days or weeks without sex because they can suppress those feelings, but for a man its not that easy.  We can't just flip a switch and say okay, I'm not horny anymore.  For a guy, once that switch is flipped there is no turning back.  Ejaculation is like breathing to men. ITS SECOND NATURE!!!

I am just so fucking frustrated right now...My wife wonders why I am always cranky and moody and irritated... The answer is I WANT SEX and YOU ARE NOT GIVING IT TO ME!!! Sometimes, I feel like I have to beg for it and by they time that is over, it takes away from the true passion of it...

Am I the only guy that has it like this?  Am I the only guy that feels this way?  What do/did I do to deserve this? How come I get so mad about this? Can anyone tell me?

It just tears me up inside because I feel like an ass because I don't want to force myself upon my wife but at the same time, she should want to have sex with me BECAUSE I AM HER HUSBAND!!!  It eats away at me all the time because I don't really know how to express this to my wife without coming across as a sex crazed jackass...

What do I gotta do to get her to understand this? I sit up at night trying to think of ways to romance her but none of them work, and when they do...Its a great thing...BUT, that might be once, twice, three times A MONTH... I need it at least two to three times A WEEK. Why don't women understand that about guys? Can any women tell me that answer...Just for the record, THE WORLD DOES NOT REVOLVE AROUND YOUR VAGINA! No matter what you think or read in those stupid ass magazines.

What is a man to do about getting some sex???

Trust

Why is it that if a guy has a female for a friend, then all he thinks about is trying to get in her pants. I want to prove this wrong.

I am not a big person on having friends to begin with. I don't trust many people in this world. I found out the hard way that most of the people that call you "Friend" will stab you in the back when the right opportunity arises, or they will just stop being your friend because of something you did or said.

I for the last year and a half have developed a friendship with one of my female co-workers. She has recently went separate ways with her boyfriend of 12 years. Because of this I want to be the best friend that I can be and help her out where I can; i.e. watching her kids while she goes out with her other friends or just so she can get away and have some time to herself. SO, why is it when a married man offers to help out his single female friend, it is assumed that all he wants to do is cheat on his wife with this woman.

I just don't get it. IF there is no physical attraction between the two then why is it such a big f'ing deal??? If the married man loves his wife truly to the core then why can't she put her trust in him to be faithful to her, and not step out of his marital boundaries in this type of situation? I just don't get it.

If you are wondering, yes this is going on in my life right now. I can't seem to wrap my head around it to comprehend it. I have been with my wife for over 11 years and have been married for over 10 of them. I have never stepped outside of my marriage for any type of infidelity, emotional or physical. I have been 100% faithful to my wife. Have I thought about what it would be like to have sex with another woman??? Yes, but you find me a married man who says he has not thought about it, then I will find you the biggest liar in the world. But because I have not acted upon these feelings, thoughts, or emotions, then that makes me like every other man in the world.

I believe that when I took the vowels of marriage, I meant them!!! I just don't get why its okay for a woman to just up and accuse her man of wanting to cheat, just because he has a female friend. Now if the tables were turned, then she would be pissed that you would not trust her with this other guy being what she calls a friend...If she is married and he is single, it doesn't always mean that he wants to get in her pants or vise versa. Most women cheat on an emotional basis and don't think nothing about it because they don't think that it is a form of cheating. They believe that cheating is when they have intercourse with someone...Do most men care that their wives or girlfriends do this??? I think that they do not. As long as she is climbing in bed with him at the end of the night and not fucking the guy friend, then most guys just don't care.

Now that I have finished my rants and raves, I want to get back to my topic of trust. So why is it not okay for a guy to go to a girls house and watch her children, while she goes out and enjoys herself for the first time in a long time. I personally do not see anything wrong with this, but my wife just doesn't seem to think so...She says she doesn't know if she can trust me in this situation. I just wish that she would give me the benefit of the doubt and "TRUST ME!" I would not let myself get into that situation because I do love my wife, and not to mention my CHILDREN!!! With that I will end my dilemma with this...IF you don't trust the one you are with, then ask yourself, "Do you not trust yourself?"

Sick

I hate being sick. I have missed the last 3 days of work because I can't breath and because it feels like someone is sitting on my face (not in the good way). I feel bad for my kids because I know that they will probably get sick too. My poor wife is also sick plus she has a double ear infection.

Every time I blow my nose, its either red from the blood or yellow from the snot, or sometimes both. I am tired and light-headed. I can't do anything without being short of breath or feel like my head is gonna spin off of my neck. Just watching TV or doing something on the computer makes my head hurt half of the time. Sleep is not happening either. I toss and turn and wake up short of breath because I closed my mouth and tried to breath through my nose.

This purely sucks because I don't have any energy to play with my kids or even go to work. This sucks because I need to work because I need the money to pay bills. I know that we will get through it somehow because we always have. So with that I am going to go and fix my wife and kids Mickey Mouse waffles. I on the other hand will have either toast-n-peanut butter or nothing at all...